My roommate and I love TV. Good TV, bad TV, and TV on DVD. It is how we relax when we are not working, going to class, or studying. Since moving in together, Carrie (2nd year) and I have a few TV shows that we have been trying to keep up with.
“Breaking Amish” is a show about five young people who have decided to move away from their religious families and find out how to live life away from the rules and restrictions. Tuesday night, I walked into the living room and Carrie was watching the show. She turned to me and said “it’s fake.”
My jaw dropped.
She explained that apparently, all the subjects of the show have been out of their communities for years. Why my immediate response was to be shocked and offended I don’t know. We all know that reality shows are often anything but “real.” For some reason I felt like my favorite TV channel had pulled wool over my eyes and I was not happy about it.
Authenticity can be hard to find. Luckily, this hasn’t been my experience at Candler.
Last week in Introduction to Public Worship we had to write from memory the prayer that the presider of communion says in our denomination. As a United Methodist, I have heard this at least once a month since I joined the church when I was young. But reciting the liturgy and learning the ins and outs of running a worship service has got me looking forward to graduation in May with both excitement and anxiety. I have been doing practical things at Candler from day one and it is one of my favorite parts about Candler.
But now I wonder, am I prepared? Will I ever be prepared? Lucky for me, Dr. Phillips our Worship professor has given us the good news of being in ministry. He told us that to walk away from the class with only the preparations would be a loss. He encourages us to be people of prayer and people who are authentic because those things are just as important for defining who we are as people in ministry.
I started to think of my every day life. We encounter teachers, classmates, church members, and family. We have the opportunity to rush through the rituals with those people or to stop and be in a relationship that is honest and glorifies God. We encounter papers, exams, and tasks at work. How many times do we just fake our way through these things? I know that for me all of these happen an unfortunate amount.
Thank God that is not the end of the conversation. It is important for us to be vigilant in the ways in which we are real with God and our community. But we must not forget to lean on God and our community to fill our gaps with grace. The difficult part of this blog is that I have no answer; we only have trust in God and our community of faith who have promised to help mold us into the most authentic servants of Christ that we can be.
All I can say for today is… Praise God for progress!
- Marissa Teauseau
Marissa is a third year MDiv student, a graduate of Centenary College in Shreveport, LA, and a Candler Student Ambassador.